Every morning the sun will rise and with the dawn, comes the light of a new day. with the new day comes possiblity, possibly, anything could happen.

or nothing.

cuz whether or not you like it, the day will end, the sun will set. but then you wake up with infinite possibility. then you end with only so much done. but somewhere in between it all, youll see the most amazing things. youll meet the most beautiful person you will ever know. youll have the best day of your life. youll smile. ull laugh. and ull learn. and maybe ull write it down, and maybe ull share. like, im doing right now.

but thats what id like to believe xanga is for, its for sharing. not everyone uses it thus. ive been blessed with the gift of articulation, to communicate my emotion. ive tried to as much as i can. but i am now finished.

certain complications have led to me being incapable of finishing my thoughts, and i am left confused. but with this confusion comes a certain reality.

i dont belong in this world. i belong, in my own mind.

and thus i take a bow,

...

*bow

and end my scriptures with a sentence and a period, good night and good morning, everyone, forever.

remember, the problems we face everyday can be solved, however hopeless it may seem at times, remember:

"our remedies oft in ourselves do lie".

NouC MaM Masta: my buddies
NouC MaM Masta: r like
NouC MaM Masta: dude! thats hella weird
NouC MaM Masta: u go up to a girl
NouC MaM Masta: and u like rape them
NouC MaM Masta: and im like no!
laDy viXenOus: HAHAHA
NouC MaM Masta: HAHAHA
laDy viXenOus: bad robbie
laDy viXenOus: haha
NouC MaM Masta: serious!
NouC MaM Masta: its like this
NouC MaM Masta: i dont want to knoe ur name
NouC MaM Masta: where ur from
NouC MaM Masta: i dont care.
NouC MaM Masta: i just want to dance!
NouC MaM Masta: is that so bad?
laDy viXenOus: haha
laDy viXenOus: no...
laDy viXenOus: haha
NouC MaM Masta: yea!
NouC MaM Masta: and u can say no
NouC MaM Masta: but u dont have to say
NouC MaM Masta: "ew get away from me!!!"
NouC MaM Masta: HAHAHAHA
NouC MaM Masta: lmaoooo

GG. yesterday was fun. spencer promised me a good time. and his niggerbomb ass delivered.

to the guys that never let me down.

GG NO RE.

going from feeling bad to myself to BEING ANGRY.

im not mad at anyone.

IM MAD AT EVERYONE.

lots of times recently ive been thinking to myself, wtf rob? u dont need this shit! u can just walk away. but fuck, i cant do that. thats how i stay sane, thats how i keep telling myself that im a good person, by the fact that i do NOT turn away from my problems.(HAH in ur face HELEN!) I WANT TO RESOLVE THIS. whatever this is. im not as angry as i am frustrated. frustrated that u dont know how sweet i really think u r. Frustrated because i dont know what i did wrong. i know, i should know, but i really think you misheard, im just not stupid enough to tell u shit about ur own friends. if it was during the dance, i said "im really lucky to have you as a date" i dont ever remember bringing up anything about ur friends.

neway i made a scene today, but hey, im sick of being a nice guy and letting people walk all over me. but i acted incorrectly, and i apologize, im gonna find that kid and give him 5 bucks, i knoe its still wrong, and im really really sorry. i hope u read this. cuz when it comes time for u to "cool down", like everyone says you will, i probably wont care. im sorry, im not submitting to ur insane... will or anything. i did all those nice things cuz i dont know how to act anyother way. it was cool, for about a day. then i dont know what happened. it all just went to hell before anything could get cooler.

<RAH!>

i gets me pretty ENRAGED just thinking about it

if u get it, then u get it.

if u dont, dont ask or ill eat you.

emotion vs logic.

.

.

...

"so robbie, how do u feel?"

"BAD"

"aww, why bad?"

"CUZ. I SUCK."

"no you dont.."

"YES I DO"

lately i find myself making a scene everywhere i go. wtf am i starved for attention or something?! then i see someone that makes me so happy, and i go up to them, and im all smiles, and theyre like ":- |... wuts up."

WWHHYHY!?!?!?! WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!!!?!?!!?!?!?!

MAKES ME SO MAD!!!!! >_<!!!!

what could i say?! cuz i can  say it. what can i do?! cuz i can do it. IM FREAKIN ROBBIE, NOTHINGS UNATTAINABLE BY ME. TELL ME AND ILL BRING YOU THE MOON.

then again. maybe im just freakin out. which is entertaining to read about. i asked eric something today. i said, "hey eric, does GENIUS border INSANITY" he thought about it for a little bit, then he said "yea." then i was like "so im a freakin genius?!"  "no. the inverse is not true." sure it is. cuz if u have to be a genius to be insane, then whats the difference between the two? if u have to be in a pool to get wet, arent u wet anyway?! in anycase its interesting to read INSANE RAMBLING.

"its ok robbie, its not rambling"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU. im fuckin pissed cuz ur niggerbomb ass cant get me out of this ditch, uve gotten me out of EVERYTHING else whats the problem?!"

"... well robbie maybe u dont want to get out..."

"..."

".."

"."

"WTFUCK DOES THAT MEAN?! COME HERE SO I CAN HIT U IN THE FACE."

"fine fuck you, im leaving, good luck working without logic."

"FINE ILL FUCKIN DO THIS SHIT BLINDFOLDED! I DONT FUCKIN NEED ANYONE! NOT EVEN MYSELF."